Fairy Tales

When you are along way from home and feeling lonely there are times when you question how you truly feel about someone. And you worry how about what they feel for you. I asked T to wait for me....and its a tough thing to do. Asking anyone to give up a year of their lives is never easy especially when you both know the risks involved in this. There of course is the danger of the combat zone...and then there is the long distance thing. At any rate it is a very hard thing. I know that my love is very very unhappy right now...misses me...wishes I was home. But here I am. So we fall asleep alone and wake up alone. The days blend in to one another and as time goes by the doubts keep perculating deep in our minds. How do we feel about each other? How has my being away changed our relationship? Are we in trouble? Sadly I don't know the answers to these questions. I feel quilty about putting someone I love through this. Its not deserved. I don't want to be selfish. I want what is best for us both. I will be coming home in 29 days. We'll have to talk about this. I dread this. I guess I want to live a fairy tale. I want there to be a happy ending. But like this war...maybe there will be no happy ending for us. But I am still hoping...still wearing the ring. I still love you babe. Please remember that.