Friday, March 23, 2007

7 Months In the Combat Zone

Today represents the 7th month in the combat zone for me and most of the folks in my unit. We first got to Kuwait on August 23rd and the time has gone faster then most of us could imagine. Since then we have seen and done a lot. We have been changed. Sadly, some of the guys who came here with us will not be coming home with us. A few of buddies left because of medical reasons and of course, we had the three who died when the aircraft crashed in January. I think about these guys a lot. I think of what their families must be thinking and wish there was something....anything....that I could say or do for them. Back home, there is a lot going on politically. Debates are going on about the war. There is the horrible stories coming out of Walter Reed and how injured vets are being treated. There is a looming constitutional crisis between Bush and the Congress who are fighting it out to see if Carl Rove and other presidential aids have to testify at congressional hearings. Its ugly. But to be truthful, we might as well be on a different planet. We are too busy just living day by day, counting down to redeployment. Camp Anaconda is still very much "Mortaritaville" around here now, so we are on constant alert. The surge...some say...is working. But it is real hard for us to tell. In the states, you hear about the death of soldiers but you mostly just get the numbers that died. We learn that they were from certain units and certain locations in the country and then we learn their names. It is hard to read those names. We all look forward to coming home. We do have lots of hard times but we also have some really interesting and yes...fun...times. Last week we went to the movies and enjoyed goofing off at the office once the boss left. Today, the Bluch did a little barb-b-cue out back. The ribs were great and the brisket was just like being in Texas. Ha ha. But it did remind us of what we had to look forward to when we come home. So 7 months down. We are officially over the hump. We can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Now lets just hope they don't move that effin tunnel on us. Ha ha. See you later my peeps.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Ignorance Wears Four Stars

The other day after General Pace (the Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff) indicated that gay people should not serve in the military because gay people are "immoral", his staff and several others pointed out that this was the General's personal opinion and damn it, he was entitled to it. Well sir, with all due respect, this is my opinion and I AM ENTITLED TO IT TOO. Don't ask, don't tell is a law that allows gays to serve in the military as long as they do not reveal their sexual orientation or engage in "homosexual conduct". The reasons for this policy, according to the Department of Defense is as follows.......
Homosexuality is incompatible with military service. The presence in the
military environment of persons who engage in homosexual conduct or who, by
their statements, demonstrate a propensity to engage in homosexual conduct,
seriously impairs the accomplishment of the military mission. The presence
of such members adversely affects the ability of the armed forces to
maintain discipline, good order, and morale; to foster mutual trust and
confidence among service members; to insure the integrity of the system of
rank and command; to facilitate assignment and worldwide deployment of
service members who frequently must live and work in close conditions
affording minimal privacy; to recruit and retain members of the armed
forces; to maintain the public acceptability of military service; and to
prevent breaches of security."

General Pace, in his moment of truth, clearly indicated that he thought gays should be banned from the military, not for the reasons listed above, but rather because he says:

".....homosexual acts between two individuals are immoral and that we
should not condone immoral acts," Pace said in a wide-ranging discussion with
Tribune editors and reporters in Chicago. "I do not believe the United States is
well served by a policy that says it is OK to be immoral in any way."As an
individual, I would not want [acceptance of gay behavior] to be our policy, just
like I would not want it to be our policy that if we were to find out that
so-and-so was sleeping with somebody else's wife, that we would just look the
other way, which we do not. We prosecute that kind of immoral behavior," Pace
said." (Chicago Tribune)


Nowhere, in this statement does he state anything about morale or unit cohesion or the other reasons that the military imposed these restrictions in the first place. He basically said that he finds homosexuality morally offensive and that he did not feel that the military should endorse "immoral behavior" by letting gays serve openly. I am comforted of course by General Pace's concern that the military only recruit "moral" soldiers but this begs the question. What are your standards for determining whether or not a soldier is moral? In the last few years the military have issued a significant number of so-call "morals waivers", because recruiting has plummeted after the Iraqi war and there was a need for new recruits. These moral waivers allow soldiers with felonies and multiple misdemeanors to enlist in the service. The New York Times recently reported on this:


"To keep filling the ranks, the Army has had to keep lowering its expectations.
Diluting educational, aptitude and medical standards has not been enough. Nor
have larger enlistment bonuses plugged the gap. So the Army has found itself
recklessly expanding the granting of “moral waivers,” which let people convicted
of serious misdemeanors and even some felonies enlist in its ranks. Last
year, such waivers were granted to 8,129 men and women — or more than one out of every 10 new Army recruits. That number is up 65 percent since 2003, the year
President Bush ordered the invasion of Iraq. In the last three years, more than
125,000 moral waivers have been granted by America’s four military services.
Most of last year’s Army waivers were for serious misdemeanors, like aggravated
assault, robbery, burglary and vehicular homicide. But around 900 — double the
number in 2003 — were for felonies. Worse, the Army does no systematic tracking
of recruits with waivers once it signs them up, and it does not always pay
enough attention to any adjustment problems. Without adequate monitoring and
counseling, handing out guns to people who have already committed crimes poses a
danger to the other soldiers they serve with and to the innocent civilians they
are supposed to protect." (NYT, February 2007)

Now let me get this straight. General Pace says gays should not serve because "we don't want to encourage immoral behavior" but it's all right to enlist convicted felons who commit robbery, aggravated assault, burglary and vehicular homicide. What the F@@@??? Uh...last time I looked people who steal from and assault others are considered "immoral". Is this the message you want to send to people? You can be bad...really bad...kill someone with your car even...and still join the military. But if you are gay...well shit...that knocks you out for good. Come on General. This is bullshit, sir. There is no other way to describe this line of thinking. What is the military necessity for keeping gays out? Can you give us a reason other then homosexuality insults your morals? Please sir, you owe the men and woman of the Armed Forces an honest discussion on the merits of keeping this outdated, useless policy. And lets cut the morality play. You should be implementing policy not making it. Let congress debate this issue on merit and let the chips fall where they might. State your view on the policy not on your personal view of homosexuality. And let all qualified men and women who love their country and who are willing to give their lives in its defense serve. Bigotry has no place in America or in our military.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Stirring the Melting Pot: The Army Way

My first full week back in Balad has gone pretty well. On Monday I landed early in the morning in beautiful downtown Camp Anaconda. The best thing about landing....it was 77 degrees and sunny here and I left 10 degrees and snow in Albany. But then again, I would take Albany over Balad no matter what time of the year it is. Home was great, but when my boy Blu came by my hooch on Monday night (I basically slept most of the day on Monday) I could see in his eyes how happy he was that I was back. And I was real happy to see him. You know I have the best friends at home.....but there is something about the connections you make when you go to war with someone. I think its because you have to be with these people through tough times and through all the bullshit that the "giant green weanie" (the army) throws your way and this shared misery and adversity tends to makes you all closer. Thats how I feel about my soldiers. We come from all over...and are so different in so many ways. One of my soldiers is 19! Damn I sometimes think that she thinks I am the oldest man in the army. My soldiers come from places like Texas and Alabama and Colorado. My LTC and Major are from Vermont and I am from NY. I have female soldiers and male soldiers, african-american and mexican-american and a few good all american mutts. And yes...we even have those who are liberals and those who are conservatives, those who are Republicans and those who are Democrats. In the civilian world, I could not imagine that this combination of characters from all different ages and ethnicities and regions could ever manage to get along or to build a team that would be so strong. And yet...that's what we have done. I believe the rest of the country could learn from our experience. See...over here....we really don't have the time to waste on petty differences like the color of your skin or where you came from or even whether you are liberal or conservative. What matters most is....will you be there for your buddy when bad shit goes down or not? Do you trust the guy or gal that's in the foxhole to your left and right? I don't speak for all soldiers, but I can say at least in my own case.....I know my soldiers will be there for me and they know I am there for them. That's why I worried so much when I was home. Knowing that helicopters that carry soldiers are a big target right now for the insurgents. When I was home...I panicked when I heard that one of them went down. I prayed that it was not any of my soldiers who were on those flights. I felt relieved when I came back and Blucher told me everyone was alright. I can't even begin to fathom losing one of them. Although we are all looking forward to going home this summer....I don't want to waste time...wishing the time away....without realizing that in many ways we are living incredible lives and are sharing moments with each other that will never leave us and are not likely to be replicated. The fighting Jags....oh how proud I am of my team. And with all due respect to my family and friends in the US....it really feels good to be home! In August...home will be back in Albany....but for now.....it's Camp Anaconda Iraq...and I have a family to take care of over here.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Eddie I Hardly Knew Ye

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Parting is Such Sweet Sorrow

About a year ago I first learned that I would be deploying for Iraq. For those of you who read my blog back then you know how difficult it was for me to say goodbye to all my friends and family. This last two weeks has been remarkable but I have had to say goodbye all over again. To everyone. And I won't lie...it hurts. I am now in Atlanta and getting ready to head back to the sandbox. I will be glad when I do get back, because that will mean I am one step closer to coming back here. I got a chance to see so many of my friends back in Albany and traveled to Tennessee to see my family. I also got a chance to go to NYC for a bit as well. I really realized how much home means to me. And how much each of you mean to me. Today is not an easy day. But tomorrow will be better and the day after that even better. Because as much as I love my family here, I know that I got my soldiers who miss me and want me back with them. So it is bittersweet. It really is. To my love....honey....thank you for making me complete. I love you so much. Take care of Eddie and love him like you love me. When you are lonely hold him tight. (btw...for those wondering....Eddie is the new dog we just got). I will come home to you..dont ever doubt that. Alright. I better cut this short. Much love to you all.